I'm on a pensieve mood today.
I just realized that God allowed some of the trials in my life to somewhat break me, so that he could rebuild and renovate my spirit to become a better version of itself.
I may act like I'm just easily soaring over life's hurdles, but my inner dimension is like a deep abyss with millions of ripples dancing on the surface.
I'm a very introspective person, sometimes even too critical with myself, my environment, and on how I interact with my environment. Mix this analytical attitude with a well developed sense of empathy and the product would be a big ball of raw nerves - feeling, thinking, feeling and thinking, thinking and feeling ad infinitum.
It's a two edged sword.
On one hand, it is very helpful for personal development. On the other hand, in excess, it could lead you towards the road to insanity. (Well, being an artistic person, I think I'm partially crazy anyway because this is what makes me think about outrageous out of the box ideas and principles that would make people say "he's such a weirdo" and this monicker is a welcomed one because I'd rather be coined weird than boring as dirt) - ok now back to the program....
I'm just thankful that God gave me the capacity to harness His gift of an introspective mind with an empathic heart because through this, I'm slowly but definitely on my way to be the person I'm meant to be, which is a refleciton of the seed of God's image placed within everyone's being.
Trials may hurt me more than the usual because I think and feel more than what is usual as well, but for me, this also opens a wider door towards greater healing if welcomed with an open mind and heart.
So far so good. I'm glad that the storms I encountered didn't uproot me but moreso challenged me to let my roots sink deeper. I'm solid, as of now.......
